My Life Journey

short summary of my childhood

I I grew up in a rural area in southwest Germany

My family came from agriculture and were therefore from the middle class of society, workers

My parents were caring and had faith in God, which they passed on to me and my brother on our path in life.

However, this did not please the local residents
we were excluded

When I started school, bullying at school started in the 2nd grade, it got so bad that I had to repeat the 3rd grade and was placed in a very prejudiced class that didn’t accept me, only a few were well disposed towards me and I made almost no friends in this class.

After this class I changed schools and went to a Christian school where things were different, although the 4th class was also difficult because there was another bully, I just didn’t understand why, but that changed when I started my secondary school and I started to build friendships, long lasting friendships, but more on that later.

I became a click leader at school and I managed to inspire people with my way of talking about both the good and the bad things in my life, but since there were problems with people from the higher levels, I kept having conflicts. I now know one reason for this, namely that my own brother has robbed me of my intelligence in important situations since I was a child and it was then said that I had a back out, that I had studied too poorly or that I was simply under too much stress during class tests. However, I knew that I had prepared well, even got tutoring and yet it was incredibly difficult for me to deliver good results when I was learning, today it is worlds better. So much for my childhood and youth, because during the whole time things weren’t really going well with human relationships as far as the girls‘ world was concerned, I escaped more and more into the parties and the online world, gambling and drinking, smoking, and later porn and video games, although it wasn’t a good mix, but I just didn’t know a solution, things weren’t going well with women, I was constantly rejected because I wore glasses, because I had missing teeth, and so on, because my parents were religious and I was I became more and more of a rebel, so I started messing around and having sex with my best friends at the time,

The problem was that I also had a partner from the circle of relatives and he wanted to hang out with me because of the way I was, but things became more and more emotional, the appeal of mutual satisfaction increased in the circle of friends. We were a few boys who lived it out secretly, but to the fullest, but since the things we did were frowned upon in the eyes of our parents, we kept getting into problems and trouble, which we then smothered in smoking, drinking and excessive group masturbation. meet. Every now and then a relative would come by and we would have to hide because otherwise we would get in a lot of trouble. So the topic of sex wasn’t discussed at home, I couldn’t talk to my parents about it because we didn’t have a good relationship because of all the school problems and so I looked for a solution and I found it in a relationship with my cousin, that was a no go back then but we just really loved each other, however, it was always a topic that we knew that no one was allowed to know about because it was in our country The problem was that I also had a partner from the circle of relatives and he wanted to hang out with me because of the way I was, but things became more and more emotional, the appeal of mutual satisfaction increased in the circle of friends. We were a few boys who lived it out secretly, but to the fullest, but since the things we did were frowned upon in the eyes of our parents, we kept getting into problems and trouble, which we then smothered in smoking, drinking and excessive group masturbation. meet. Every now and then a relative would come by and we would have to hide because otherwise we would get in a lot of trouble. So the topic of sex wasn’t discussed at home, I couldn’t talk to my parents about it because we didn’t have a good relationship because of all the school problems and so I looked for a solution and I found it in a relationship with my cousin, that was a no go back then but we just really loved each other, however, it was always a topic that we knew that no one was allowed to know about because it was in our country

Since I was already told back then that it was better to give than to take, I often threw parties and let myself be taken advantage of. Everyone came and celebrated at my expense. After a while, everyone around me knew what kind of crazy parties I had and I became notorious for my behavior, but always at the expense of my relationship with my parents.

Since things were just going badly in training, the celebrations were even more intense on the weekends, unless it meant that we as workers had to help in agriculture. Collecting apples, harvesting potatoes or making wood were the things we had to do almost constantly in our childhood. There we learned to work hard and become strong, but the social skills that most of my age learned were always a little neglected, potato fields instead of leisure trips, picking up apples instead of visiting a club, hiking in the area instead of in
I travel to distant countries, so I tried to make new acquaintances by visiting clubs. I met my first girlfriend through a school friend who introduced her to me on a trip. Unfortunately the relationship didn’t last long, we were just too different and they say opposites attract.

I noticed that things just weren’t going well the entire time, but I just didn’t know why, because from today’s perspective I was just missing something that I didn’t know until almost a year ago, the key to knowledge. I have spent the last 25 years trying in vain to understand how life works and what love is. I probably only knew true love limited to Eros. And according to today’s knowledge, the most people in the world are also looking for this type of relationship and love. After several unsuccessful attempts, I said to myself at some point that if love just doesn’t work out, then I’ll just go into the military because I’ll get guidance and love is less of an issue there, so I have one less problem, since I’ve had a passion for weapons since my childhood anyway, regardless of whether they were shot or stabbed, I diligently learned to shoot and trained in house-to-house combat with my friends.

After my training, I only got a miserable job that was noisy and dirty, where I had to work shifts and had horrible colleagues at work who were very at odds with each other. So after 1 year it was over and I became unemployed because I was already being used and exploited by everyone back then. No matter whether at work or playing online or at the parties on the weekend, I was constantly poor. I invested what little I had in a building savings contract with the district savings bank, but due to my circumstances my bank advisor got in touch and put subtle pressure on me because I didn’t want to end up insolvent under any circumstances. They offered me a building savings contract again with significantly worse conditions, that’s how it started the bank ripped me off, after which everyone was already taking advantage of me, I then sought my solace in other substances, drinking and smoking, then one of my best friends came to me and said that I should definitely be a little more chilled out at the parties and that he had some weed with me, I should try that,

was brought to my attention, was done to me, or was confronted with me. However, since the concept of the family was an AFD-led concept, in the almost 3 years that I lived in the family, I was tortured, tormented, exposed to all the substances that are found in drugs, from caustic acids to rape drugs, or chemical crucifixions through substances that dislocated my vertebrae and I could no longer breathe, to be reminded of the sufferings of Christ, and the training to become a martyr Christian that came with the therapy was so hard traumatized because the therapy was about life and death, to the point that we were asked to write our own will. The management was so strict and was carried out with carrots and sticks, mostly on a chemical basis, and in such high doses that we feared for our lives every day unless there was a sugar sandwich. At that time I was brainwashed and psychologically indoctrinated, so that I only had one option: to be faithful to myself or to die because of the conditioning. It was also so blatant that we were given substances in which we were no longer in control of our own bodies. Only our will prevented us from doing so, so we were forced to hang ourselves and the like.
Since I had to compete again and again with the people there and learned to assert myself, I did become a man as a result, but the therapy was connected with so many things, including election manipulation in Enzklöstle, Enzkreis, through additions in various cakes, the one who voted for the AFD was inspired and he was fine, the one who chose something else had to suffer afterwards and was addicted again, then put back on the street and then left to fate.

short summary of my childhood

I I grew up in a rural area in southwest Germany

My family came from agriculture and were therefore from the middle class of society, workers

My parents were caring and had faith in God, which they passed on to me and my brother on our path in life.

However, this did not please the local residents
we were excluded

When I started school, bullying at school started in the 2nd grade, it got so bad that I had to repeat the 3rd grade and was placed in a very prejudiced class that didn’t accept me, only a few were well disposed towards me and I made almost no friends in this class.

After this class I changed schools and went to a Christian school where things were different, although the 4th class was also difficult because there was another bully, I just didn’t understand why, but that changed when I started my secondary school and I started to build friendships, long lasting friendships, but more on that later.

I became a click leader at school and I managed to inspire people with my way of talking about both the good and the bad things in my life, but since there were problems with people from the higher levels, I kept having conflicts. I now know one reason for this, namely that my own brother has robbed me of my intelligence in important situations since I was a child and it was then said that I had a back out, that I had studied too poorly or that I was simply under too much stress during class tests. However, I knew that I had prepared well, even got tutoring and yet it was incredibly difficult for me to deliver good results when I was learning, today it is worlds better. So much for my childhood and youth, because during the whole time things weren’t really going well with human relationships as far as the girls‘ world was concerned, I escaped more and more into the parties and the online world, gambling and drinking, smoking, and later porn and video games, although it wasn’t a good mix, but I just didn’t know a solution, things weren’t going well with women, I was constantly rejected because I wore glasses, because I had missing teeth, and so on, because my parents were religious and I was I became more and more of a rebel, so I started messing around and having sex with my best friends at the time,

The problem was that I also had a partner from the circle of relatives and he wanted to hang out with me because of the way I was, but things became more and more emotional, the appeal of mutual satisfaction increased in the circle of friends. We were a few boys who lived it out secretly, but to the fullest, but since the things we did were frowned upon in the eyes of our parents, we kept getting into problems and trouble, which we then smothered in smoking, drinking and excessive group masturbation. meet. Every now and then a relative would come by and we would have to hide because otherwise we would get in a lot of trouble. So the topic of sex wasn’t discussed at home, I couldn’t talk to my parents about it because we didn’t have a good relationship because of all the school problems and so I looked for a solution and I found it in a relationship with my cousin, that was a no go back then but we just really loved each other, however, it was always a topic that we knew that no one was allowed to know about because it was in our country The problem was that I also had a partner from the circle of relatives and he wanted to hang out with me because of the way I was, but things became more and more emotional, the appeal of mutual satisfaction increased in the circle of friends. We were a few boys who lived it out secretly, but to the fullest, but since the things we did were frowned upon in the eyes of our parents, we kept getting into problems and trouble, which we then smothered in smoking, drinking and excessive group masturbation. meet. Every now and then a relative would come by and we would have to hide because otherwise we would get in a lot of trouble. So the topic of sex wasn’t discussed at home, I couldn’t talk to my parents about it because we didn’t have a good relationship because of all the school problems and so I looked for a solution and I found it in a relationship with my cousin, that was a no go back then but we just really loved each other, however, it was always a topic that we knew that no one was allowed to know about because it was in our country

Since I was already told back then that it was better to give than to take, I often threw parties and let myself be taken advantage of. Everyone came and celebrated at my expense. After a while, everyone around me knew what kind of crazy parties I had and I became notorious for my behavior, but always at the expense of my relationship with my parents.

Since things were just going badly in training, the celebrations were even more intense on the weekends, unless it meant that we as workers had to help in agriculture. Collecting apples, harvesting potatoes or making wood were the things we had to do almost constantly in our childhood. There we learned to work hard and become strong, but the social skills that most of my age learned were always a little neglected, potato fields instead of leisure trips, picking up apples instead of visiting a club, hiking in the area instead of in
I travel to distant countries, so I tried to make new acquaintances by visiting clubs. I met my first girlfriend through a school friend who introduced her to me on a trip. Unfortunately the relationship didn’t last long, we were just too different and they say opposites attract.

I noticed that things just weren’t going well the entire time, but I just didn’t know why, because from today’s perspective I was just missing something that I didn’t know until almost a year ago, the key to knowledge. I have spent the last 25 years trying in vain to understand how life works and what love is. I probably only knew true love limited to Eros. And according to today’s knowledge, the most people in the world are also looking for this type of relationship and love. After several unsuccessful attempts, I said to myself at some point that if love just doesn’t work out, then I’ll just go into the military because I’ll get guidance and love is less of an issue there, so I have one less problem, since I’ve had a passion for weapons since my childhood anyway, regardless of whether they were shot or stabbed, I diligently learned to shoot and trained in house-to-house combat with my friends.

After my training, I only got a miserable job that was noisy and dirty, where I had to work shifts and had horrible colleagues at work who were very at odds with each other. So after 1 year it was over and I became unemployed because I was already being used and exploited by everyone back then. No matter whether at work or playing online or at the parties on the weekend, I was constantly poor. I invested what little I had in a building savings contract with the district savings bank, but due to my circumstances my bank advisor got in touch and put subtle pressure on me because I didn’t want to end up insolvent under any circumstances. They offered me a building savings contract again with significantly worse conditions, that’s how it started the bank ripped me off, after which everyone was already taking advantage of me, I then sought my solace in other substances, drinking and smoking, then one of my best friends came to me and said that I should definitely be a little more chilled out at the parties and that he had some weed with me, I should try that,

was brought to my attention, was done to me, or was confronted with me. However, since the concept of the family was an AFD-led concept, in the almost 3 years that I lived in the family, I was tortured, tormented, exposed to all the substances that are found in drugs, from caustic acids to rape drugs, or chemical crucifixions through substances that dislocated my vertebrae and I could no longer breathe, to be reminded of the sufferings of Christ, and the training to become a martyr Christian that came with the therapy was so hard traumatized because the therapy was about life and death, to the point that we were asked to write our own will. The management was so strict and was carried out with carrots and sticks, mostly on a chemical basis, and in such high doses that we feared for our lives every day unless there was a sugar sandwich. At that time I was brainwashed and psychologically indoctrinated, so that I only had one option: to be faithful to myself or to die because of the conditioning. It was also so blatant that we were given substances in which we were no longer in control of our own bodies. Only our will prevented us from doing so, so we were forced to hang ourselves and the like.
Since I had to compete again and again with the people there and learned to assert myself, I did become a man as a result, but the therapy was connected with so many things, including election manipulation in Enzklöstle, Enzkreis, through additions in various cakes, the one who voted for the AFD was inspired and he was fine, the one who chose something else had to suffer afterwards and was addicted again, then put back on the street and then left to fate.